Life is what happens when you're making plans, right? I've been busy cooking and crafting and taking pictures and reading blogs and getting ideas for my next project and before I knew it this post took the back seat. That happens too often! I get busy and don't take the time to talk to people and get to know them much less talk about faith. Faith and God are sometimes hard to talk about. What do you say? What will they say? So I'll share some things here that happen to me at the well and hopefully you can relate too.
I am the woman at the well. My past is not perfect. I wouldn't say that I am an outcast in today's society nor am I famous (ya'll know I'm not, ha ha!). I am just regular old me. And just like the woman in the Bible (John 4:1-26), He knows everything about me.
When I invited God in my heart at age 12, I didn't really understand what it meant. I felt His presence, it felt good, it felt right, but I didn't understand it. There's so much more to it than the way it felt! I didn't know what to do with what I had either. As time goes on, through high school and college I knew and loved the Lord but did little to keep myself close to him. I proceeded to live my own life.
After ten years of marriage, I learned I was pregnant with another man's child (twins to be exact!). I was the one with the stable job and he was beginning to have health issues. With my husband aware of the situation, I broke the news to the man I was in love with and I stayed in the marriage for a couple of years.
As time went on, the burden and weight of my decision were too much! Even if their father disowned us and I had to raise my daughters by myself, I knew that staying in this situation wasn't the right thing to do. But what do I do? Look at all the people I have to talk to to set things straight. What do I say, what will they say? It no longer mattered, I was so tired of the decision I had made, I couldn't care what anyone thought. I had already hurt the two people closest to me. I had to take the next step...to the altar.
I turned it ALL over to Him. He is the one and only Guide. He saw me through this mess of a situation I had created for myself! God calmed me when I was anxious or when I talked about this. I discussed it with confidence in the future. It was the truth! I also prayed for my ex and God calmed my concerns over leaving him and his health issues. As soon as the girls were old enough to understand, I explained it to them.
I am the woman at the well, He knows all about me. Just like the woman at the well in the Bible, when I was thirsty, at my lowest point and needing Him, He gave me water that would last a lifetime!